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Making History... Black
 | | Making History... Black | I remember one principal in particular being devastated about my lack of availability for Black History Month until I pointed out that March and April were wide open and I assured her that I was “just as Black and charming the other 9 months of the school year.” ....< MORE > | | View Comments (2) |
| RE: Making History... Black | | Posted On | April 1, 2010 | | Posted By | April C | Hello,
I am an African American woman. I work at a place that's predominantly filled with people of African decent; African, Caribbean, and African American. everyday when I go to work I feel hated by my own people. Not so much by the black American but a whole lot by the African from other countries especially the Dominican republic and Puerto Rico. It pains me much to where is I can't sleep and I have lately even found myself crying over it at times because at this point in my life I have come to understand the way we have been divided. And how it took the African American centuries to get out of the ugly hold of racial inequality. and I do understand that even our Africans that have traveled here willingly in search of a better life faced that ugly face of racial hatred themselves, but whats so hard for me to digest is why they hate me so much, why am I the most disliked, frowned upon group of people in this nation....I understand the white mans indifference towards me, but the domican, mexican, Puerto rican, and jamican are not they my people? do I not feel their pain, and do I not love them the way I love my American brother; I do, I also show it.
I am not knowledgable in our history of why we are so divided I do know that I resemble these people who are African like myself, and love them for that reason alone. but my heart is hardend by the mistreatmeant I recive from them. Not to put to much praise on the white person because I know they have their share of hatred towards me as well...but for 34-years I have not had one to call me black, ugly and lazy to my face like my own people. Will someone please explain to me the way I should go about getting unity in my community, because I'm starting to feel something ugly build up inside me it's changing my personality as well as turning me into the same person as the people who dis-like me because I am an American by circumstance. WHERE THEY NOT TAUGHT TO BE PROUD OF THEIR BEAUTIFUL AFRICAN SELF? | | RE: Making History... Black | | Posted On | April 1, 2010 | | Posted By | April C | First let me ask that anyone who reads my posting please excuse my typing mistakes during my last posting thank you.
my posting may be far off from the topic that is writing by you, the hurt I feel and the treatment that is directed towards me is not understood by the people I have daily contact with. The people I express my hurt to and my desire to try and change the way people think makes me out to seem "too militant" or "obsessed" with finding out why we are the way we are. My own people think I'm going crazy and I should leave this alone because people are just "mean" and "ugly" and that's the way of the world they say. I didn't wake up feeling like I wanted to change the world, this comes from the treatment that I have been receiving over the years. All my life I have been called black, blacky, chocolate, black and ugly, stupid, and lazy, I'm tired. People who look like me and who has gone through these things seem to want to ignore it and it bothers me. They call me Sistah Soldier, my own people even tell me I'm looking to be Accepted by my African people too much and that's why I'm so militant. I am neither militant nor looking for recognition, I am simply a person with feelings who loves the color of her skin in spite of me being told all my life it was ugly by my own people. I am not looking for an identity because I have found that in a great African people who came before me. I am hurt they just don't know, I guess what I'm looking for is for them to love themselves who they are and be proud of where they come from. I once heard a Dominican man say they (Dominicans) are the pretty Africans and that the Haitians are the ugly ones and that's why they are so poor and hungry when will we love ourselves? | |
